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New account [04 Dec 2004|11:14am]   I got bored with the other account, mainly the name, I was quite bored when I made it, anyways, to anyone on my friends list, Im going to add you over there, if your browsing, checck out the new journal here -Erin 3 have been committed| Suicide anyone?

Im Not Okay (I Promise) [04 Dec 2004|01:22am] [ mood | aggravated ]   Sorry for the lack of updates. Ive been in bed most of the time. Stupid jaw. Its STILL very painful. And Im out of my happy pain killers. Bah. I took a trip on Thursday to Pickering to see my mom, went to the doctors, who gave me new pills for inflammation of the joint, they dont do shit. Then ended up at the dentist after (fun filled fucking day eh?), and they told me I need a bite plate (stops my teeth from grinding at night) and a root canal. My jaw is also misaligned. Also while in Pickering, had a nice pain attack. Ended up in bed for the rest of the day Thursday, as well as today. Had a kick ass week off school, but Ill be back next week, I cant afford to miss any more school. Ugh, I just have that feeling that I want to rip off my jaw. Stupid stress.   Other than the pain in my jaw not subsiding, theres nothing else really I can update about, sooo Im out. -Erin Suicide anyone?

Percacets are my new best friend... [29 Nov 2004|04:02pm] [ mood | sleepy ]   The blood vessels in my eyes are popped from coughing so much, and my TMJ (a muscle joing thing in my jaw) is fucked. I was at the hospital until like 10:30 last night, and since Tylenol 3's never worked on me last time when I had broken my hand, they gave me percacets. Those fucking things have had me doped up and sleeping all day. Anyways, pretty much last night at like 8:30 pm, out of no where, my jaw begins to hurt, and escalates to the point where I couldnt stay still and was screaming from the pain. If it were my house I were living in, I probably would have put a fist through the wall a couple of times. Jons hand was squeezed a lot :(. Jons mom ended up driving me to the hospital where I didnt even have to wait really for the doc, they kinda just brought me right in. I also got to breathe into a bag, woo! But before that, some idiot nurse who screened me tried to get me to wear a fucking mask (the Sars ones), which made my breathing only made it worse because I felt too enclosed. Meh. So now I got these fun little pills, and been sleeping all day.   Anyways, Im off, I got an art project I still need to deal with. -Erin 2 have been committed| Suicide anyone?

So this is contagious happiness... [28 Nov 2004|03:58pm] [ mood | mellow ]   I had probably one of the best fucking weekends yet. It felt.. normal. I got into Pickering, went to my moms for a bit, then ended up in Oshawa window shopping. Afterwards, I got back to my moms and my sister, my nephew Jermaine, her boyfriend Billy, Ryan and Phil had finally shown up. Billy ended up suggesting to go bowling which I was seriously thankful for cause I didnt want to just sit around, Ive done enough of that since Ive been up in Mississauga. I won both games, 123 and 122. Billy didnt seem to happy about that heh. Jermaine was a little terror through the whole 2 games. If he didnt have candy, or my hair in his hands, he'd whine. And it was a nice surprise to see like 4 of my old friends there. Got home at like 12 am, and it was the best feeling in the world, sitting there with my mom, looking at pictures of what used to be, trading memories. I sat up till like 1:30 am talking to her about everything thats happened in the past. I just wish we had more moments like that. But either way, my weekend, fucking rocked.   Also, with those events, I managed to score some loot. Got myself the Alexisonfire and Atreyu cd's. Both rock. I didnt really think I would like Alexisonfire, but listening to the whole album, it wasnt that bad. Atreyu's cd is fucking awesome, and kicks more ass because I got another cd with it woot!. I had the urge to get my eye brow peirced too, and was quite close to it actually, but by the time I had gotten the cash together for it, Extreme had closed. Damnit. Ah well, Ill get around to it, Ive been seriously dying to get something peirced.   And, I thought there was more I wanted to write, but Im being lazy. Im just too hyper I think to sit and write. Ill probably write later. -Erin 1 have been committed| Suicide anyone?

</b>Its Not a Fashion Statement, Its a Fucking Death Wish</b> [25 Nov 2004|09:58pm] [ mood | blank ]   New background. Found at Cherry Styles. I couldnt do a customizable style cause Im a cheap ass and dont have the privalage of a paid account, but I fell in love with the background so I downloaded. Im working on my own, but its become apparent to me that Im completely blank on ideas of what to do, and my photoshop skills are a tad rusty. Suggestions anyone? I want to focus a layout type thing around either Billie Joe Armstrong <3, Green Day or My Chemical Romance. For some reason Ive been playing their new album like crazy.   Anyways, school was ok. Nothing special. Math sucked. Damn Kheun for moving me. I liked being near Sasha *sigh*. Art wasnt bad. One chick saw my crappy colour wheel and caught me off guard, first saying "Oh my god your such a loser! I love it" - I didnt hear the I love it part and kinda was like "Excuse me?". Oops. English was alright. I finally did my presentation, but my fucking make up test didnt really do anything. Instead of a 63%, it would be brought to a 65%. Whoopdie fucking doo.   Well, I wasnt really planning on writing a big entry. Im really not in the mood. Bf stuff. Ill write later. -Erin 2 have been committed| Suicide anyone?

Boredom can kill... [24 Nov 2004|10:40pm] [ mood | bored ]   Bored. Heres some useless info about me, enjoy the read, this is what boredom does to ya. a p p e a r e n c e HEIGHT: 5'6 HAIR: Reddish brown. Long SKIN COLOR: White EYE COLOR: Blue PIERCINGS: 7 in ears, tongue coming soon. TATTOOS: Not yet. WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING: Red Shorts WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: Boulevard of Broken Dreams - Green Day <3 WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?: Crappy lemonade WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: Cold. Freezing rain that feel like bullets hitting you. HOW ARE YOU?: Sleepy, kinda sick. GET MOTION SICKNESS?: Nope HAVE A BAD HABIT?: Smoking GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: Its parenT. andd, depends on the day. LIKE TO DRIVE?: Im a fucking speed daemon, now just to get my licence to do it legally. f a v o r i t e... TV SHOW: Family Guy, Drew Carey anddd ER BOOK: Silverwing series (ok, their childish, but fucking well written) MAGAZINE: Sport Compact NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: Ice Cap ALCOHOLIC DRINK: Smirnoff Apple Twist, or Bacardi Breezer Orange THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: Sleep in, be lazy, spend time with Jon <3 BAND or GROUP or SINGER or RAPPER: Green Day, or Thrice, or OOYM.. I cant just name one. h a v e y o u e v e r... BROKEN THE LAW: Ummm... I think the question should be what laws I havent. RAN AWAY FROM HOME: Nope, been kicked out, never ran. SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: Nope. Basic senario 2 am. "Mom Im goin out" "What time are you going to me home?" "Dunno"..... "Ok see ya.. LOCK THE DOOR!" MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: Hell yeah EVER TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY: Ive done alot of stupid shit, but not that. STOLE YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: Debit, yes. Credit, no, I dont forge(sp?). SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE: Stupid question to anyone who knows me. FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: Nope EVER IN A SCHOOL PLAY: Nope, only school sports teams. LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: Of course. p e r s o n a l s t u f f SEXUALITY: I like boys. CURRENT CRUSH: Jon BEEN IN LOVE?: Twice. BEEN HURT?: Too many times. YOUR GREATEST REGRET: I regret not spending more time with my dad. GONE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE DAYS: Yup... and now 6 months later still going strong. r a n d o m DO YOU HAVE A JOB: I Wish. YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: My Chemical Romance IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?: Black WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: jermaine. jon. m&m cookies. money. cigs. WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: The Used WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO?: Sleep. Skip school. w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t... TIME YOU CRIED?: Two days ago YOU GOT A REAL LETTER?: 5 years ago YOU GOT E-MAIL: Today, Green Day listing. LAST THING YOU PURCHASED: a notebook LAST TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: Much Loud MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: Saw y o u r t h o u g h t s o n... ABORTION: Havent really thought about it. Not really against it, not really for it. Its just there as an option. TEENAGE SMOKING: Pfft. If it makes you happy. Do it. SPICE GIRLS: Ahh those were the days back then. The End. 4 have been committed| Suicide anyone?

Let it snow.. let it snow.. let it snow... [24 Nov 2004|04:51pm] [ mood | bouncy ]   SNOW! It was freaking snowing. And Im in some like Christmas mood now. I love the feeling, more like the atmosphere of the holidays. Now if I have a good holiday is another story but woot. SNOW! -Erin Suicide anyone?

I'm Not O Fucking Kay [23 Nov 2004|06:36pm] [ mood | bouncy ]   Noses do conduct electricity. Holy fuck never again. Anyways. School wasnt as bad as I thought. Kheun actually joked with me. I was expecting the third degree. Ah well its all good. English - supply. Doing my presentation tomorrow oh joy, oh bliss. Art was pretty good today, as usual Jordan walks in like its nothing, did a tiny bit of eye liner work on Sean. Drew up the outline for my collage for my composition assignment, which I got the due date pushed back to Monday since I have to go back into Pickering to get the pictures I need. Funny... I hate my family, yet Im doing a collage with family photo's, and even the title "Family Memories". Meh, she seemed to like the idea.   And I just found out the weekend before I head into Pickering, I got Jon's house to myself while they're in Detroit at a football game. Paarrrrtttyyyy. Nah just kidding. I wish. Actually no, I dont. I get a fucking weekend to myself for once thank god. Blast some good old My Chemical Romance <3 and take out food. Thats the way to fucking do it.   Oh, the finale for He's A Lady is on tonight. Yay. But, Im running out of things yet again to ramble about. -Erin Suicide anyone?

Babble Babble, Bitch Bitch [22 Nov 2004|05:54pm] [ mood | content ]   Ok. I feel like a nerd for skipping today. I actually regret it. Specially since tomorrow I might have to deal with Khuen. Joy. Anyways. Got up at like 11. Had the worst dream today. It had to do with my nephew that I absolutely adore. Long story short he died in the dream which creeped me right the fuck out, since it was so vivid. *Shudders*. Jon ended up going to class late too, and hes not coming home till like 9 pm that bastard. I guess I should re-write my english because I noticed some mistakes last time I read over it.   Other than that shit, nothing really went on. Boring day in general. I just finished cleaning up the room a bit. I hate clutter. Random notes : -Joined a Green Day fanlisting... why? no clue. guess I wanted to feel "cool" -Learning more photoshop stuff... i need something to do since Jon never wants to go out -Starting my pre-Christmas shopping... well, window shopping... you need MONEY to shop.   And as you can see, Im running out of other things to ramble about so.. later ;) -Erin 4 have been committed| Suicide anyone?

I [heart] frootloops [21 Nov 2004|11:18am] [ mood | hungry ]   So, I dont think I have the Music World job. My sister had told me they were offering the job to me, so I go in at 12 like I was schedualed to, and they give me another interview, and its like the manager doesnt even remember me. The interview took a whole of 5 minutes, and I told her I could only work weekends because of my current living situation. She said she needed someone a little bit more flexible. Soon as I heard that I knew I didnt have it. Part of me is dissapointed, but another half of me really isnt. It would have been too difficult to bounce around school and working in Pickering. Hence why Im going job hunting again today with Jon. He really needs to go out and start looking for a job anyway, and theres a few places I really need to check out. Someone told me to try HMV since they hire like mad during Christmas. I figure why not, Ill work anywhere right now. Maybe I might try going over to Loblaws as well, see whats going on over there.   Other than a kind of crappy interview, yesterday wasnt so bad. Spent some time with my mom, and felt like complete shit because she kept begging me to stay, yet I didnt want to. Damnit my emotions are always sent on a god damn roller coaster when I go down. I told her next weekend Ill stay. She was happy about my 70% average, especially my Art and English marks, being at an 82% for art, and a 78% for english. Both marks were over the class median too so Im pretty proud. My other two marks I know I can raise significantly during this second term of the semester. Im getting into the rhythm of going in everyday and all that. It hasnt really been so bad. My mom wants to register me at days in February when Im supposed to come home. Part of me wants to stay here and atleast finish out the year of school (which I know is an excuse just so I can stay with Jon, I dont know how I would be without living with him now), but part of me really misses home, where I can continue school and probably find a job a lot more easier than anywhere else. I especially miss having my own space. My own room to hide away in, relax and what not.   Well Im off, probably going to get around to getting dressed, then somehow begging Jon to do the same, print off resumes and start heading over to the mall. -Erin Suicide anyone?

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